This new year isn't promising.
Last year felt like an all time low, almost every single day, especially the second half of the year. But I don't even want to think about it.
I want to move on. I want to get better.
I want to make this year better.
So I started with my journals.
Bible was neglected for a while, but it's picking back up.
So fast, in fact, that I'm starting to think about my next little black book.
Once again, I wrote down my wishes and Resolutions for the new year.
They're mostly the same as last year, but much more determined.
More money. More fun. More adventures. More laughs. More gym time. More water. More writing.
Then Dan bought me these adorable little mini-journals from Target, each with a national monument on the cover, maps of city undergrounds along the inside, and adorable little pages ready to be scribbled and doodled on.
I turned it into a Daily Log.
Did I exercise today?
Did I drink four glasses of water? Eight?
Did I do chores?
Did I kiss Dan?
Did I have fun?
Did I laugh?
I hope it becomes my nightly ritual.
Cross legged in bed with a book and a pen, checking off my day.
Did I write today?
Do something new?
Do something fun?
Hopefully these two things will give me the structure (and boost) I need to get through the first few months of the year, paycheck or no paycheck.
Since even though looking for a job and working and exercising are on my check list, so are laughing and kissing and pampering myself, maybe I can make sure my life is a mixture of work and play, which hasn't been the case this past year. It was work mixed with laziness and self pity, with the occasional bit of play.
This year, I want to be better. Fitter. Happier.