Monday, July 6
with trembling stomach
we set off
i swear i'm not afraid
around naps and daydreams
the smiths play. and lana del rey. and low country blues.
and i watch the world go by
the country go by
one city at a time
one state at a time
but it's only a road trip, only a little while
and when people ask it's just a confident smile
because we can
because why not.
so why say more?
no one really takes you serious
when you talk about depression
as a disease.
a disease you can't escape because it
it's hard being told
over and over and a lot
that moving won't change your life.
"everywhere you go; you will always be there!"
no, you can't escape yourself, but you can't do the same things over again in the same fucking place and expect change.
and they lied anyway
moving -- moving so very very far away-- changes everything
you are changed
from so so so many things. so many reasons.
i am changed.
if you're afraid to escape a place you hate.